… I should’ve stopped him. That’s one thing I wish I did. I wish I would have at least TRIED to stop him instead of watching him leave. It’s like I was LETTING him walk out on me that easily.
… I’ll leave him alone. Just look at me :’( Look what I did :’( I can understand why he left. It took 4 days for me to crack,although I did try everything I could to hold back these pathetic tears.
… I really didn’t want to lose him this way. I really miss him. It’s like, I want to just cut coupons all day for him- ha. My head hurts. It’s like my brain wants to explode. He literally knew how to calm me down when I was stressed. He also knew when to tune me out when I was starting an attitude. He figured me out to quick and he always payed attention to me. There was never a moment when he wasn’t listening.
… I fell pretty hard for him. Idk how he got to me but he did. He was so patient with me, supportive, encouraging, thoughtful, intelligent. He knew when to do certain things, & how to do it right. He was so open with me and I was just learning how to open back up (little by little). I know all of this is my fault but I swear I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I miss him. I haven’t heard from him in 4 days. I wake up wanting to text him. I go to sleep wanting to call him. Throughout the day, I’m thinking about what he’s doing, how he’s doing… if he’ll ever talk to me again. I didn’t want to lose him this way. I didn’t want to lose him at all. I really… liked, him :( I liked how he did everything he could to make me happy. I liked how he tried to bring back my interest in art, music and sports. I liked how he kept me on my toes. I liked how he gave me things to look forward to. I miss him and I’m praying that he comes back because he is an amazing guy and I honestly can see myself really being with him.
I woke up a 4th time without hearing from him.
I know this is my fault and I am sincerely sorry.
My days feel so different without him :(
This is a joke, right?
I miss him :(
- ♈ Aries: Nerves, hyperactivity, impulsivity, racing thoughts, insomnia, black and white thinking
- ♉ Taurus: Compulsivity, immoderation, hypersonmnia
- ♊ Gemini: Nerves, insomnia, unstable sense of self, emotional lability, racing/noisy thoughts, dissociation
- ♋ Cancer: Emotional Instability, co-dependency, violent mood swings, affect lability
- ♌ Leo: Histrionic tendencies, hyperactivity, negative voices, hysteria
- ♍ Virgo: Nerves, anxiety, racing thoughts, obsessive compulsive tendencies
- ♎ Libra: Co-dependency, anxiety, unstable sense of self, negative voices, hyperactivity/hypersomnia
- ♏ Scorpio: Emotional instability, violent mood swings, delusions of grandeur, self isolation, black and white thinking
- ♐ Sagittarius: Hyperactivity, noisy/racing thoughts, impulsivity, compulsivity
- ♑ Capricorn: Depressive thoughts, schizoid tendencies, compulsivity
- ♒ Aquarius: Dissociation, insomnia, noisy/racing thoughts, anxiety, schizoid tendencies
- ♓ Pisces: Distractibility, emotional instability, violent mood swings, unstable sense of self
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